An Other Profound Entry

Yesterday, while on the bus; and I am now realizing that many of my thoughts occur on the bus, I came across a thought. Not anything super important, but one that is worth noting and maybe giving significant time to consider.
Why are we; you; I; me, so important?
As a species more directly what is it about 'us' that puts me above any other animal? What is we are not as high and mighty as we think we are?
Just a few questions I had while I was sitting on the buss over looking the cramped spaces filled with bodies that are so obviously trying not to be aware of each other, but are still pressed very close. We are so close to other animals; I guess genetically, but on a basic level, we act, interact, and relate to others, not just our own species, with an undying relationship to them as an 'other'. Why should we do this? And even more why do it to each other? We are so blatantly unaware of each other. We consider each other as higher or lower, establish classes and sects and casts of each other...and for what?
I don't wish to think this way and I am only recently considering taking the time to think about how I do this and whether or not I should continue living in this vain. I do not appreciate the previously profound thoughts I carried as knowledge. Once, I thought it very important to travel throughout the world and guard myself from the evils of the 'not' persons. I am afraid that I may not be entirely correct on this topic of thought and will utilize a new frame of mind when taking my mental entry of the world around me.

Particular Relevances.

Lately, I've been all out of sorts. But, I found something that I wanted to share after riding the bus the other day. I usually ride the bus and normally I do not pay any attention to my fellow commuters. Frankly, they freak me out and I'd rather pretend that they do not exist. The worst days are when some homeless guy talks to me and all I want to do is get off the bus right then, but I am afraid that they will get off too and then I'll be stuck talking to some crazy guy with no one to protect me. Like I said, they freak me out. Other times, though, I find myself staring longingly at some total stranger. I really cannot help but stare at them. It can be really awkward for me and for the stare-ee. The other day however, I sat in the sideways seat in the middle of the bus; a particular favorite of mine. While sitting in this seat I can stare at the side of the bus and anything that passes by of interest. Sometimes, I do get the occasional person of relevance. This person is someone; who I can stare at with little awkwardity, and who doesn't know that I am staring at them. It's the greatest! And I am fully aware that I am a huge freak; thank you. There was one time a tall, dark, and handsome was on the bus and he was striking! He was dressed so wonderfully I couldn't help but look at his matching poka-dotted socks and navy blue slacks.

Weddink

In search of a weding dress:
About yeah long, with a nice neck line, and a little bit of a retro spin to it.
I don't want a fancy silk, tooly, piece of girlyness. I just want the cutest sweetest dress. And I want it to fit nicely. I've been looking for a pattern for the last two weeks and I've found a lot of patterns that I like, but I want to know that I've got the right one. So, my newest thought it that I will go try on dresses. I don't know that I will ejoy that, and I certainly don't know where to go. I'm kind of freking out about this part as well as everything else. More on the wedding later....

Happy in Raisin

Jesus is Raisin!
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What I wish

There have been numerous things and ideas floating around in my mind. Only a few have presented themselves as a reality. One being an increase in business at Espresso Christph. The employee meeting we had last night was productive and we are moving forward into the new year with pizaz! Two my internship; which is exposing my inability to use microsoft outlook. Besides that it is a lot of hard work, but great work and I feel very at home. Third, preparing for my life. In the grand scheme of things and what is turning into what looks like my life I am nervous about the direction and plan. I never thought that my "where will you be in ten years" outline would ever become reality. But, it is. Forth, my closet. Upon opening the door to what is a very bright tunnel I find myslef growing more nerons every second. At least, I hope that is what is happening. My brain could be dying extremely slowly and I wouldn't even notice. Lastly, this post and my angst. Apologies all around. And most importantly, I don't think this make any sense, so there is that.

Birthday Cake-a-Part!

To my own amazement I was able to create this birthday card in an hour. It is by far my favorite cupcake card I've made. I created this card for my boss at Espresso Christoph. The best part is that the flame gets blown out, then the candle pulled out of the frosting, then the frosting licked off, and lastly the cupcake comes out of the wrapper. And if this cupcake was real it would taste as good as it looks.

It has been a long while; well.

"Please forgive me." This is a phrase that I have become more familiar with in the past few weeks. I attribute most of this cluster-buck to my engagement! Yes, Eli proposed and even asked me two whole days earlier than he had planned. Note: he has been planning this for two whole years. Now, it is safe to say that this event messed up my brain, but maybe it is all the other good news too? I recently was promoted at my place of work Espresso Christoph and was offered an internship at the Milwaukee Art Museum. These recent changes are by far my pride and joy. And besides messing up a little here and there I feel that I will be starting of the new year with a bang!

Good luck with all of your adventures and wish me a good one.